I miss you. every single day.
the one person who knew everything about me and more. the one person I could turn to in any situation. the one person who made me feel like I was on top of the world. all the time. together or not.
I miss your laugh. your eyes. your half smiles. your touch.
I miss skating. white hot chocolate and tiny marshmallows. I miss not caring what anyone thought. I miss fighting. I miss making up. I miss snowboarding. I miss your single bed. I miss the cabin. reading on the lake. I miss surprise pictures. drunken nights. sober mornings. I miss the zoo. I miss chocolate and pineapple. I miss reading flyers. I miss hockey games.
I miss simple. don't have to work for it. no more first impressions. first kisses. let downs.
I miss not having to work so hard because it just worked.
just because I'm the reason things are this way. doesn't mean I don't.
every day I picture a reunion. started by something small. something only you would get who or where it came from. one last chance to make it up to you. to prove how foolish and naieve I was. and maybe I still am. it's taken me way too long to figure it out. and that's my downfall. but I realize what we had. and I realize that I can go on countless dates and I'm never going to find that again.
and it breaks my heart a little more every day.
I'm sorry.
